Loss is so very very hard. I'm so sure that the lovely people around him suffer every day because they can't see their reflections in his smile..or from the sound of his voice. Was looking at one of the first tv/video taped performances which happened to be a Daryl Hall Solo presentation in Japan.."I bought T Bone this suit...do you like it ? .." said Daryl to his huge Aisian audience...T Bone smiled shyly and then with cute individualism...whipped out a fast curved pick throw..to whomever caught it...in the audience..The Japanese arena...seemed full of very polite yet enthusiastic kids...lovely lovely lovely...Let's not forget the ones left behind who possibly cry every day ...somehwere in their souls for wishing he was not somewhere else instead of here..His soul lives on in them...though...they gotta remember that...hope that comforts them ...some..gp

hey y'all.

its been a fight ya know...to realize that i am 'old' ...uh nearly 62 and for real..these days living the life that i chose so help my parents fall asleep..as the sda's put it..to await the sound of the trumpet on the resurrection morning...listened to our very simple funeral of last august from tape yesterday..i have to do that every once in a while so i see how ..as the Bible predicted ..knowledge would be increased...people would run to and fro..the world would spin out of control eventually and as we know it ..would end..all religions are legitimate..and i say that as a born into a seventh day adventist minister's kid's home..a religion that my mother studied from the northern sticks of maine...and decided it was slightly more progressive as a life style than some of the others...I think she was a Baptist..and lined up to marry a minister of that church then somehow things changed..and she married the fearless wild guy..(yet shy) who lived ...as he said in his short sermon at the funeral ..for camel cigarettes ( and a pipe) and ballentine beer...that wasn't gonna work for her and he knew it..but she didn't criticize him for it...they skated at the skating rink...he was a free man..with a harrowing escape from the nazi's..via Russia..to England...and back home..so many many many did not return...and his ptsd is a thing to behold at times...in the middle of the night..should i abandon this man who turns 95 in a month ? well yes and no...it's never clear cut...because everyone's DNA is unique..i have some musical gifts...according to other people ...i'll leave my own opinions to myself.. i thought daryl hall was a most amazingly troubled singer...on this particular night on a tv nobel peace prize concert for jimmy carter...i knew jimmy carter somewhat..thought carlos santana did a compelling job of pulling the evening together..but this was all on tv with tv tricks...and close ups...i was mezmerized by the talents of a singer i had never seen in my life...jan 2003...and he didn't even seem like he was singing with all cards on deck...john seemed to have to help him through it...perhaps an argument or problem in his personal life..wasn't sure but he was troubled...now isn't that just the hook for all the women to fix him ? LOL....ah but he had a woman...and she was wonderful and the love of his adult life... long thought short...i think hall and oates do well with people 20+ and younger...i think that's much the key to their phenomenal success....i'm just too old...i burned out on the stuff a bit...but loved the covers....mainly...you've lost that lovin feelin...such an amazing duet..daryl quasi singing O Holy Night...in the middle of rich history on Tremont St. ( Ray Charles style)...live...while the crowd was kind of noisy with their beers sloshing around..and one guy climbing over me every 10 minutes for more beer...i had to like daryl a lot to go through all of that...in all of it though...and it's the loss now...is what was and isn't so much ...now that (from my view in the audience) selfless T-Bone..took care of Daryl..at certain moments...that you could see ...John ..same..only different... I've only seen their first laptop webtop box contained broadcast...i'm just not up to speed...i feel it might ruin something if i look...it was a plea (partly) of loss of his then girlfriend...and children..but then you have to become a historian and realize that daryl perserveres...and gets em back...but i have yet to meet a woman or see a woman at the show who isn't taken by him..T-Bone knew that in a unique way...It was always very cute...John is the same only different....on the women thing..how about these 60 going on 40 year olds ...eh ? cheers...and congrats to all of them and warm thoughts always for the T-Bone I watched from my seat down there in the audience somewhere...and CAB DRIVER turned out to be a good intro..at the Wiltern...so many years ago...gp

please know, dear people, that in spite of my bursts of hurt or anger or just plain surprise at events that produce those emotions..is never meant to criticize a group that has done so much for me ..at a time of huge change. Born in New England, I migrated to California from my own thinking that this would give me an easier place to attempt some orchestral conducting in a university setting..when it seemed after 10 years that i needed a break from my multi-faceted job..i had a reason that seemed completely correct..the support of a gentle and medically employed younger man..sweet, kind, gentle..and very nerdy..in ways i found endearing..and into my late forties i seemed just a tad burned out from academia..anyway...i felt lucky and blessed to join the mediterranean feel of san clemente..and we often returning on weekends to the inland empire to visit both sets of aging parents..then i felt music needing to emerge again and not just quietly out of my home..I suppose that brought other issues to light about my own personality and what made me tick..I started making some plans to return to my home (Boston) and he was into it..an adventurous change for a true Californian..None of these details are important on this blog ..i suppose ..except to me..and the opportunity to write them..before Christine decides her mark in this way on the internet is not something she wants to embrace. Still her quiet way says what she wants to say..her life is on hold until her financial independence is more independtly set up and she can also return to Massachusetts...aka New England. When you are in western Ma, you feel you are more a part of the NYC culture and I enjoy that..as well..as of last year ..having spent both summer and winter seasons ..there..Yes i'm rambling..but I recieved a most moving note today from one of my former high school students who now leads the high school where all of the Hall and Oates influence was strong for our children/teenagers..If you analize some of the lyrics of the songs...they could perhaps misguide young people..as some have pointed out..but I always thought of them more in the cateogry of honest vitality in the growing up process. There was a most moving Memorial Service recently in Jordan Hall..one of the primo smaller concert halls of the world...located at New England Conservaotory..from which I graduated..as an undergrad..spring '71..I went on to stay..breaking up with my first pre-mature marriage..at the time...sadly but with a feeling of release for the music itself..Music is a healer...and through it huge tributes are made to teachers, students, and collegues alike..So was the case at the service last weekend..the musical elite in Boston ..including Yo Yo Ma..played and spoke of the intertwining of that bond..unique to the city..a Conservatory one block from Boston's own Symphony Hall on Mass Ave. Loss is loss...but I do think the gifts that come from musical performance are forever enhanced by its sustaining power..I'm sure the internet broadcast this evening will be blessed and bless thousands..The fact that I am not able to keep up or even feel that it is my role to keep up..to technology listening..speaks of my love for those who have dedicated and finely tuned their outreach to their audiences/fans..and it is returned to them..I know..I am sure that T-Bone's soul truly rests in peace as the magnitude of his soul continues on from his dedication..It has certainly made me feel about what it is that I try to do ..with as much integrity as I can muster..Musicians are a special breed..and their audiences perhaps even more special...gp